SAD LONELY DESPERATE SUFFOCATING
When to school today, had quite alot of fun playing dota wif my classmate
well today u barely had anything to write about my day.
Well been feeling kinda weird in me
somehow i feel tat i had lost quite amount of confident in me.
Shouldn't feel this way i mean i need buck up on my confident in order to achieve wad i am seeking for.
I just donnoe how to achieve my goal all i can do now is by showing concern and just wait and wait
hope one day my sincerity can touch her=\
Yan an don lost hope
Buck up focus u can do it somehow someday.
I realli juz simply adore u.
Smile ^^ and lead on wif ur life man hahaha lOLS
&♥ BLOODY RED.
&♥ 3:57 PM
Back to post Once again
Got a new tattoo a star on my shoulder
damn pain it kept on bleeding and bleeding
it look like a bloody star.
tis afternoon around 12 plus reach home and straight away at around 1 plus jia sheng call me to ask me go hougang mall to find him.
I was like diao just reach home and had to go out so went over to find with wif some of our ite frenz.
We went to the Dog house and went to play basket ball till lyk 5plus and went home straight away fallen asleep -_-!!!!
I was damn tired.
But slept till lyk around 9 i suddenly had a nightmare so woke up xD.
and now i am facing my com typing my post right now^^
There a girl which i adore and admire very much...
hmmm somehow i donnoe why somehow i could imagine all those pessimistic thing.
i had this crush for lyk veri long but hmmmm ^^
Well i think i shouldn't worry so much for the moment.
Just hang on yan an u can do it someday somewher yea ^^
I am so proud of u Boy jia you wor ^^
right now just enjoy life wif all my frenz
shouldn't let all my problem over take my mind
hmm it seem that saying is a easy thing but i will try veri hard yup.
Bring salvation to those pitiful soul and purify them
&♥ BLOODY RED.
&♥ 10:43 PM
loner
Life isn't a bed of roses.
Once a loner always a loner.
No matter how hard i try i can never achieve anything.
No matter how hard a loner tried longing for something it somehow cannot be done.
No matter how hard i try to compromise i can never be congenial.
I can only be pessimistic and be doubtful of life
Been determine and persevering but still nth has change.
I have always ask others to be happy and live life happily instead of putting a sad face.
But end up i can't be happy
Sometime i feel tat i ain't suitable for her
Maybe tis is good after all if we really ain't suitable she wouldn't feel sad someday
Although i may not be able to understand wad she is thinking or wad she need
But i am sure tat i can let her be happy
Well well well it all look like some drama in the show but it the fact
We don always have the thing which we wanted.
Well being a loner isn't bad after all
The most important thing is she being happy
Well been thinking about my future wad can i do
I really don dare to think much
I just take a step and count a step at a time.
Living my life carefree but i know tat someday i would be suffering due to jobless and etc.
Really hope someday i would know wad i could do in the future.
Haven been myself cause my eyes has seen no conviction just lies and contradiction.
Really wish tat i can yearn for something.
Right now all i can do is hide all my emotion and being the unreal self
Waiting for the right chance to express all my feeling at once.
i know tat there alot of people out there feel the same as me
it just tat they don wanna express it out.
Right now all that i can think is going out with friends
Don really wan to go home after school everyday
I could really emo at home
All i could do is rot and sleep at home
I really find it damn meaningless to spend my life like that.
Really admire her and like her a lots
Well let see how let me continue to be perseverance and being determine
The result will be out sooner or later.
If fate really doesn't wan us to be part of each other or in each other life
As long as your happy i wouldn't mind being torture by all this torment pain in me.
Bring salvation to every pitiful souls like me and may it souls be purify
&♥ BLOODY RED.
&♥ 5:50 PM
